Sleeplessly
No rest for the anxious
Up and awake At odd hours of the night Worries and fears Begin to take flight I’ve forgotten the method I can no longer recall What it means to live Engines choke and stall So many plans Of the things I must do To see to an end But won't follow through No time and no money I’m caught in the gears Of the clockwork material Minced and crushed by my fears So may things Have depended on me I’ve forgotten my way And can't seem to get free This tailspin I’m riding As the ground races up To meet my demise While I ponder the cup If faith will save me From the impending crash It’s my last greatest bet Or it ends with a splash I’m awake while the sun Still weary with sleep Hours from now over Horizon will creep To spread out its light On this foolish sad pawn Still I know that it's darkest Just before breaking dawn
Those sleepless nights I know all to well staring at 8 o’clock, wondering when the hour hand will toll a bell.
I’ve wished I died that time , but now I know why faith didn’t save me then. It’s when I looked in the mirror and realized no matter what I’m becoming I must lead it well. Not for perfection that’s never what I’m seeking , it’s as though I’m diving between portals slipping, through lifetimes and now I’ve arrived here on cue. From what I can see the only force that is you that couldnt be more true